Hey there! It has been a very long time since I have posted anything. Things are basically the same as before. I am still working at National College and I have just completed my Associates. Caelyn is 13 months old today. She has grown sooo much and I cannot believe the steps she had made.

I still do not have a male companion in my life. It does not look as though there is going to be anyone anytime soon. That is okay I guess. It really bothers me though that Roy has someone and I don't. I am a way better person than he. At least I do believe in God. Anyway, I just wish I could find a good Guy friend that I can talk to and go out and do stuff with. I am not really looking for anything serious. If things were to develop that way it would be okay. That is wishful thinking though because I don't have anyone.

I have been thinking about one of my ex boyfriends a lot lately. Wondering how he is and what he is doing. If he ever thinks of me like I think of him...it is really funny if ya think about it. I really did love him and I thought we were going to be together and then boom....it was over. I really miss him and the time we shared. I know that everyone probably thinks that I did him badly but that is not the way things went. I wish that I could call him, but I can't I have thought about calling his dad and asking him how he is but I am afraid that my call would not be welcomed. Besides he is probably happy with someone and has left it all in the past. I should leave it there too I know but for some reason he has been on my mind. I guess that it will pass. Besides I doubt if things could ever have worked out anyway.

Well I am brokenhearted over the devastation that has hit the south. I wish there was something that I could do but  Iam not able to give money and I cannot go down there and help. I can pray though and I will pray for all of those lost souls and families that have lost everything they had. I know that I feel some conviction and that I need to do something and still I am hesitating,

I have been thinking about the Church that I use to attend. I wonder how my Pastor has been doing. And the people in the Church. That was the nicest place I had ever attended. They made you feel so welcome and wanted. It was like a family. I have not felt that way about another Church I have attended. I miss it there. I wish that I could go back even if it is only for one time.

Well I have to go and I will write more later.

Hello everyone!!!! Things are going okay I guess. I am a little stressed out. Classes seem to be going okay. This is my last term and I will have an associates degree for Administrative Office Professional. Cealyn is now 10 months old and getting sooo big! Who could believe that in two months she will be a year old?!!??? WOW! Anyway, the strangest thing happended to me the other day. I could have sworn I saw an ex of mine...Jeremy Conley. It was the weirdest thing! There was a guy in a white Toyota (I think) and he had an older gentleman with him. Looked like Jeremy's dad.They kept starring at me. I would, of course, stare back at them. Man I thought about it all night. I do wonder how he is doing. We were engaged after all. Enough of that anyway. Roy has not been coming to see Caelyn like he did. Over the past 5 days he has seen her for  a total of ONE hour...ONE HOUR in FIVE DAYS!!!!! I thought that he said he was not like all the other guys and that he would be there for her. Fooled me again I guess. I can see that he is slowing exiting out of her life. I thought I was doing the right thing, but now I just don't know. I think he has a girlfriend and that is okay, but why is it that when a guy has a kid by someone he becomes a total A******? Just do not get it. Anyway I guess that things will work out the way they were meant to. Well I have to go. Talk to you later. BYE!!!!